I WANT TO CLIMB THE MOUNT FUJI!

This may sound crazy
And I think my Aunty will flip when she see this.

But, I have a thought.

I WANT TO CLIMB THE MOUNT FUJI!

Precious quiet moment

For some reason,
I cancelled ALL my tuitions and my lesson this weekend.
It feels great without having to scream at children on a sunny saturday morning!

I picked up this very interesting line from i-weekly

“男人，只当女人的命运是一个故事。”
- 香港作家，陈慧

两性之间的感情差异：女人的故事，一定有男人；男人的世界，女人未必是主角。

It's time to enjoy this precious quiet moment.
I don't know when will it happen again.

人到底会不会变？

人到底会不会变？

小时候的我，印象中很安静。自己躲在家里的一个角落玩家家酒，跟洋娃娃说话。
开始读书后，我变得很叽喳，有朋友陪我一起读书、玩耍。

我一直都在变。
现在的我，不爱热闹、不爱玩、也很少捣蛋。
现在的我，唯有在 people close to my heart 面前，才会显得格外沉默。

因为是如此的亲近，一个眼神或举止足以让对方明白自己的心情。
心照不宣

从前的我，比较容易信任别人。但一次又一次失望后，就没有信任可言了。也许信任是一个不恰当的用语，又或许是因为有所期待，才会有失望的存在。信任，从来就不容易。但如果活在这世界上，完全没有可信任的人，未免太悲伤了吧？

从前的我，是个直肠子。任何的不愉快都会通过对话或表情透露出来。现在不会了。不快乐，沉默和微笑变成最佳的掩饰工具。也许是懒得去解释，也许是觉得伤感，什么也不想说。

（因为就算说了，往往不是你想要得结果。）

我是变了，也是没变。爱动的那个是我，安静的那个也是我。很想相信别人的那个是我，不想再相信任何人的那个也是我。多情的那个是我，无情的那个也是我。

多情的人，失望太多，只能无情。

这是 Mount Fuji, 也将会是我一个月后去体验人生的地方。

今天有点挫败感。

我不是铁人，我也不是神。

Went to Marina Barrage last week, for the first time :)

I never deny that I have been a very strict tutor, and if you were my students before, you sure had kena scolding from me in one way or another. Call me bad-tempered, i don't care. Because what it really matters is the results.

Somebody once told me before, the difference between a teacher and tutor is:
- A teacher's main job is to pass knowledge to students
- A tutor's main job is to produce results

Although a teacher has a performance pregress report and must ensure that all students pass or perform, but it seems like much responsibility has been shifted to the tutor.

Parents will blame tutors for poor results, parents will blame tutors for poor performance, parents will blame tutors when school work is marked wrong, parents will ask why tutors charge to high etc, but parents will give teachers present on Teacher's Day and forget the person who has also been working hard behind the scene.

I talked to a parent over the phone for 1.5hours today. Discussing over her daughter's progress and what can be done. It has been a mentally draining talk.

Considering that I have a full-time job now, yet spending 10 hours/week on 4 students, with two O Levels, 1 PSLE & 1 P4, it has not been easy. I hope I can help them pull through, and i don't want to give up on them.

But it gets very tiring if they don't want to help themselves. And it's very disheartening when your students are getting poorer as the examination dates draw nearer.

Just like what teachers always say, 世界上没有懒学生，只有不用心读的学生。
Yes i totally agree.

I spent every Saturday morning screaming, hitting a boy, tearing away his books, throwing his pencil case, staring at him with my nearly pop out killer eyes, hoping he will just spend some time do simple things right.

Why is it so hard?

And last Satuday, i screamed until i felt giddy. no wonder teachers have high blood pressure, now i totally understand.

i hope i can be nice, and sweet and reason out with the kid. But it never seems to work out because parents themselves are over doting the kids and this has already lose its effect.

it's only when i get rough that it works!

why can't they make my life and their life simpler?

It has been worrying, especially for the O Levels and PSLE students. Every parent thought I am god, and how i wish I am one. I hope to make her go to express stream, i hope i can make her eligible for poly admission, which is why i still continue helping them even a tired day of work.

But why can't they motivate themselves and pick themselves up?

我不是铁人，我也不是神。
有时候，我真的很想这样就消失。

it's just like what im doing now.

i do alot, alot, alot, but are those work neccessary?
What's the meaning of "do first, see later"?

it's not as easy as ABC, every single matter i draft them out with much thinking process. And no matter how fast i work, it is never ending.

One hurdle after another, i have to cross and overcome. I have to think of ways so that I won't fall. Or rather, I have to think of ways where i don't fall too hard.

Decisions made from the top is ever changing. One week ago, it's Plan A. So i do. Then one week later, change to Plan B, Plan A cancelled. So Plan A work became useless and I have to start afresh and work on Plan B.

我不是铁人，我也不是神。

I have been diligently reading through Japan travel guide. It has been worrying me since ALL who knew that I am going tells me that I will get lost.

I hope I don't get so lost.
It reminds me when i was left alone in a shopping centre by my dad when i was young.
i don't like that kind of feeling.


I heard this song over and over again for the past two weeks. Over different radio stations, over Rediffusion, over the cab, over my colleague's desktop etc etc. Although it's a old song, but somehow it touched my heart.

"Sometimes in order to do what's right, we've to choose not to do things that we wanted the most."

OH NO!

YOU SHOULD JUST STOP SPENDING MONEY, MISS OW!
If not, expect yourself to eat cup noodles for 3 meals in Japan...

Why can't I resist the temptation! 50 dollars disappeared -_-

Directions

I have become stronger.

Because I have stopped believing

anyone, anymore.

Happy National Day

Aunty won two actual day NDP tickets but we decided to give it to others since we have already watched it before. So we settled in our comfortable sofa and watch the TV.

I am seriously not very happy about going back to work tomorrow since it is a holiday. And the fact that I am going back alone to help my director with some not-very-urgent matters pissed me more.

It has been told directly to him that Monday is a Singapore holiday and whatever shit he plans to do tomorrow is frankly, fuckin not very urgent and important that you die die have to do it on Monday.

Not that it can be settled immediately, come on. It really make no sense to me.

While shopping with fungie on saturday, i saw a forever friend graduation bear that looks familiar. how coincidental.

EbisBoshi

Dinner tonight was with Fungie at Ebisboshi - Iluma after our lessons. As I get older and start working, friends are getting lesser. Every week, we meet the same people or are even too tired to go out. And perhaps as one by one slowly gets married and have a family, we may just lose contact with each other.

But well, it's true lah. 朋友不用多，知己一两个就够了... And i totally enjoy the company of these friends.

This jap restaurant v special. they use an electronic pen to order our food. and there was already a queue as early as 6pm.

There were too many choices, we don't noe wad to eat and spent a long time deciding!

万能笔！

The waiter took two blur shots. and finally she took a clear one. i can see her relieved face! LOL

I ordered a mini katsu don.

the chawanmushi was bland and it tastes weird with cauliflower inside!

yakitori combo, yucks!

Fungie seems happy?

Not at all! LOL

The food was mediocre and the only thing which is not bad is the desserts.

6 upon 10, that's the maximum rating we gave for EbisBoshi!

Shopped awhile before going home. While we were on the cab, I saw this HUGE, RED, ROUND circle thing in the sky and told fungie theres a BIG MOON!

She turned and stared for a while and told me IT'S A HOT AIR BALLOON!

Very amused, we continue investigating the round thing in the sky and thinking if it was mars or jupitar landing on earth, laughing our ass off. the taxi uncle joined in the fun.

Conclusion: it was a big, red, round moon!

Im tired...

Istana Outing - 2 August 09

8.30AM SUNDAY MORNING, the 15 of us gathered at Plaza Singapura.
You must think that we are crazy. In fact, I think we are really crazy.

Along with us, are our camera and all the different lens.
It is the Light Painters Group's Outing at Istana...

The Istana gate opens at 8.30am and when we were there at 8.45am, we were already way behind the LONG LONG QUEUE! Why are so many people going there so early? They must be crazy. Like US -_-

Alot of families went there for a picnic or phototaking.

Fountain

These umbrellas are done by people from all walks of life. Pretty ain't they?

And there are empty umbrellas for u to write ur wishes for Singapore!

And we get a rep to write too!

TA DEH! Happy Birthday Singapore!

And I caught this cute lil mei mei trying to draw on the umbrella!

SO CUTE RIGHT!!!

There were Art Competition going on too...

Reminds me of my childhood days...

We were trying to take the lotus. Can u see how we wish we can just jump into the water!

Henry lent me his long lens...WHoooosh! Heavy but shiok!

The flower by my pathetic prime lens...

This is nice! :D

Im scared of insects, so thanks to the zoom lens!

Yup, it was a fun day. And it tempts me to get more lens! -_-

My graduation photos!

Ah Yi went to collect the photos yesterday. For all your viewing pleasure!

They took 8 shots of me and I picked 3 to upsize to 8R.

Ah Yi loves this.

I prefer this! Cus I requested for this background and this setup. Although I think my hand is abit weird.

With my parents. It is not "sengnet", just that when I took it with the camera, I didn't notice it is "sengnet".

And this is my family photo. It will be more complete with Ah Ma around. But well, I guess she will be happy for me in heaven. Not to mention, missing in the picture is Tony Uncle, Xiao Hei and his mummy. I prefer the ones with Ah Gong sitting in the middle, instead of Daddy. But I couldn't find one that everyone is smiling nicely.