At the end of the day...

我想你，但是我不会去找你

有时候，你很想念一个人，但你不会打电话给他。打电话给他，不知道说什么好，还是不打比较好。 

想念一个人，不一定要听到他的声音。听到了他的声音，也许就是另一回事。 想像中的一切，往往比现实稍微美好一点。想念中的那个人，也比现实稍微温暖一点。思念好像是很遥远的一回事， 有时却偏偏比现实亲近一点。  

开心和悲伤的时候，你想到的是同一个人还是不同的人？

如果都是同一个人，那就最完美。如果开心的时候和悲伤的时候，想到的不是同一个人，那你应该选择能和你共度悲伤时刻的那一个。

人生本来是苦多于乐。你的开心有太多人可以和你分享，自己一人也很好。但是悲伤却不是很多人可以和你分担。 你愿意把悲伤告诉他，就代表他才是你最想亲近和珍惜的人。

至于我想的是什么，已经不重要了。 

爱太远

永远有多远我看不见
爱在一瞬间说变就变
你曾是我的地平线
想围绕你沉浮起落日夜直到永远

永远有多远我泪眼看不见
爱在一瞬间变成冷漠的拒绝
泪水苦又咸流成汪洋一片
情人和朋友之间

爱太远...

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Burnt Out

This week passes super fast. Everyday I step out of the house early in the morning and comes back home after 10pm.

I have been going on course since Monday till yesterday from 10am to 5pm. And even though I get to learn new things, the amount of work that I have remains the same. So imagine Im away from my desk for 7 hours and still have to come back after class to do it.

I think im mad. I have been keeping myself unbelievably busy and loves the feeling of pushing my body to the limit. And then fall ill, then rest and cycle repeats itself.

I love this job and quoting wad a senior journalist said yesterday, we must treat this job as a lifestyle. i do agree with her, and no wonder there are so many single and fierce female editors who work 15 hours a day.

But it's good to be kept busy. At least i wont have the time to think about other things or bother about others.

- saturday i went back office to work.

- sunday i went pixar and caught a cold.

- monday i started my course and took MC in the afternoon because i was running a fever again. This fever and cold and cough thing never seems to get out of my body. The stupid clinic in the office needs to make appointment! WHO THE HELL MAKES APPOINTMENT TO SEE DOCTOR WHEN YOU ARE SICK! what if somebody fainted on the spot, does the fainted man have to make appointment to see the stupid doctor?

and the stupid clinic took a 1.5hours of lunch break! from 1230 to 2pm! i stood outside the clinic at 145pm, looking at the long list of appointment and i must wait till 4.15pm to see the stupid doctor, forget it man. go home and see even better.

slept, woke up and went for dinner at 3 monkey @ holland village.

- tuesday on course. after that head back office to complete my dumplings festival article which is published today. so reached home at 930pm?

- wednesday on course. then headed to brewerkz at bukit timah to celebrate weimin 27th birthday. reached home at 11pm.

-yesterday on course. went for tuition after that at woodlands. reached home at 11pm.

basically, im burnt out.

Pixar!

Went Pixar exhibition at science centre on sunday! FINALLY! looking at all the sketches, it really amaze me! Pictures from teddy bear:

I want to cry already

I want to cry already. It's already 9.15pm and I'm still in office and I haven't finish my work. No matter how fast I type, I still cannot finish. I skipped lunch and now I'm tired and hungry.

I have been trying my best but there just seem so much to do. Plus I will be away on course from Monday to Thursday, if I never finish I will miss my deadline.

:(

I LOVE CITY SQUARE!

Ok so last Saturday, 9 of us gathered at Kranji MRT station, with our passports in the bag, all ready to go Malaysia. It was my FIRST one day msia shopping trip with friends and im so excited about it!

They met up the day before at Icing Room to make a cake for me.So sweet!

With my new camera, i seriously don't know why, but the photos doesn't turn out satisfactory at all! :( And yea, we were all outside This Fashion cutting cake and sharing the cake using 2 spoons.

It's a teddy bear cake! And of course, there's some secret reasons why they made this! But i must say, they are really creative and talented lot! Can link the body to the hands so naturally! thumbs up! thanks guys!

But the time we reach chity square (not farrer park, but malaysia), it was already 2pm. so we lunched at tong shui. aiyo, the sambal fried rice weiting recommended so yummy! i like! and im missing it now...

Then the girls head over for manicure and pedicure session while the guys find their own entertainment. Wah this one i must really complain. I started doing first and i only requested pedicure. I started at 3pm and i ended at 5.30pm can! u noe why, cuz a super junior manicurist did it for me. i requested to do french and she go and colour the white colour part thick thick, machiam like dividing my nails into half like dat. but i nv complain first ok, i just let it pass and let it dry. then who knows my nails complain, so the first toe and 2nd toe got entangled and the pedicure was spoilt la, so the junior come and redo for me again. Then go into drying machiam, my nails complain again, the first toe and second toe stick onto each other AGAIN! damn amused. so this one the most senior one come and "save" it. how she save? she use the white colour to paint over the spoilt part, hence the white part just got thicker.

this time, i 发火 liao. i just give off a black face and say:"不是很美，不过如果你要这要，就随便lo!" then i put inside the drying machine and damn angry.

heng the boss was nearby, heard it and turn around. the stupid senior still complain to the boss LOUDLY and said: "她说不是很美wor!"

please la, paint until like that, which asshole will tell u its pretty. comeon, u are a manicurist for so long, im sure u noe whats real beauty and whats trying to cover shit right.

Heng, the boss see liao really not nice and she personally come and redo for me. so in the end, i got a satisfactory french toe nails but i stayed in the shop for so long.

So we shopped a bit and i bought a nude pokka dot top that i really really really love. when i first saw it, i want to but it immediately! RM$29.90! LOVE!

Dinner was at Taman Sentosa, a few us shared cab and head there. But taman sentosa was super big and of course, my group got lost. and in the end, we walked for 15 mins before reaching the seafood place.

But all is worthwhile, we had super lotsa fresh and yummy and CHEAP seafood! each one pays RM$36+! loves!

Shall go there shopping more! :D

Then on my birthday, meet up with ade, pebbles and rj for dinner at wild rocket! aiyo, sorry i dont know why i pick so ulu place again! but the food is nice ok! fusion, modern singapore food!

And yes, this black and white picture was taken using my new digicam -.-

Headed to KBOX, sunday night only $8 NETT! and they first gave us a super big room, enough to hold 20 people ok!

Got home shower and knock out. as hug myself in the blanket, i felt something at my legs there. The next day i check it out and it was my bday present from ahyi! :D

Versace perfume and avene toner! LOVE LOVE! thanku ahyi, i love u! :D

And URS also gave me 55% birthday voucher! with a new pedicure, i went to buy shoes!

NICE RIGHT! Original price $59.90, 55% discount so around $27 nia! I SO LOVE IT! heck the 2.5 inch heels, i will manage! LOL

And a bling bling sandals! i think after i bling my camera, im so in love with blings, so i bought this the next day! hohohoh!

Yup yup, thats the end, no more backlog!

Crabby Birthday @ Chris House

If u realise, Im doing alot of backlog because I simply can't access the internet at home and can't upload any picture and blog about it. So anyway, my few days of holidays was fun. It's supposed to give me a break but in the end, I played too much that I lack of sleep.

Last Thurssday, I treated Eve & Chris & Ah Zhi & the two devils to a scrumptious crab dinner. Eve and I went Melben to get it and we took a cab down to Chris house to enjoy the food and aircon.

Oh mine, i didn't realised i ordered too much till i saw the table full of food! haha. So we had chilli crab, butter crab, crab bee hoon, cereal prawns, salted egg ribs, mixed vegetables... total cost of damage $192

Look at the cutey rei!

I had my 50mm lens with me and of course, all the portrait shots were so pretty!

Though i just finished my dinner and i looked so bloated with my sexy red lips, i still look pretty ok!

They got a cake for me!! It wasnt a surprise cuz rei was asking her mummy wheres the cake -.- nevertheless, thank you :)

they felt my head looks better with cap so they lent me a cap to take photos -.-

Aiyo, really very pretty! I don't know to put which one as my display picture!

Anyways, our topic of discussion for the night was camera! cuz i was telling them im getting my panasonic lx3 and chris said she wanted to get a camera too and i "persuaded" her to get a lx3! LOL!

i showed her a few choices lah ok, and she go and read the reviews herself. She saw xiaxue got a lx3 and take so chio photos and bling it until so chio! so we decided to get a lx3 together on vesak day! (which is the next day)

but before that, let me share with u my 3 steps 1 bow night! So after eating crabs at chris house, i took a cab down with lishan to guang ming shan for the 3 steps 1 bow. our initial idea was: lishan to stay over at my house after the 3 steps 1 bow and go for workout the next day.

BUT

we were queuing like mad and only started the whole journey at 4.30am! but the time we ended and went for mac breakfast, i was so sleepy that i fell asleep while drinking my ice milo!

it's like the 24 hours famine camp like that! (juz that i wasn't hungry). and i sweat like mad ok. my knee caps were red!

Some photos using my iphone:

heng we bathed the buddha first.

while queuing for 3 steps 1 bow. is pend 2 hours in the hall of compassion looking at the big buddha and watching some videos.

the 3 steps 1 bow! look at the crowd!

it was a good experience la! if i have the chance, i would like to go again next year. so i reached home at 730am, showered and KO at 8am. At this time, i already dun care if i fully dry my hair anot. i just want to faster lie down on my bed, switch on the air con and sleep.

Woke up at 12pm? Ate bobochacha for lunch and went b. waxing. then went supermarket to buy grocery and cook for the family. I did steam fish, garlic salad, sambal kangkong, potato salad & black chicken herbal soup.

the scallop are too salty, the soup is too bland and the kangkong is too spicy! rah! will do better next time! then faster eat and shower and meet chris to buy the camera at amk central (ms photo)!

we spent an hour or so trying out a few cameras and finally got LX3 at $639! and aunty florence(boss) said since im bob lee friend, gave both of us lotsa freebies!

Then we head down to plaza singapura! cuz i wana gmask my camera. i wanted to make the camera white! but because of the stupid unremovable lens, i cannot put white sticker cover over it. and can only bling! but if bling the whole camera, i will go bankrupt, so i only bling one outer circle! they use sworski crystals, so one crystal for $1) and i used 56 crystals!

then we went spotlight buy pearls and i did a camera chain. the pearls cost me ... i cant rmbr. then i went to bling the lens cap again and used 40 crystals.

don't need to count for me. i know this is an expensive camera! LOL. but it's exclusive to me! muahahahha!

but u noe wad, im still not loving it. because i cant seem to produce good pictures. need time :(

yup! thats all for now. will do my msia post and wild rocket post soon.

Art Therapy

My 10 lessons of Art Therapy lessons finally ended. And it ended a few days before Vesak. So each of us did a flower lotus for Buddha and painted it.

These are the works done by Shuli and me. The rest of them have full attendance but both of us only attended approx 60%, hence we dont have alot of drawings to show off :(

Not my drawings, but they are so pretty that I want to take pictures with them. Done by Ayako, a spiritual artist in the class. Very interesting, i didn't know theres this term "spiritual artist" till i met her. One day, i shall go for her service.

We had a mini art exhibition and everyone of us were supposed to give a small introduction to our own art pieces. This is shuli, giving her "speech".

And waihong admiring his pieces. I think this shot is artisitc!

After painting our lotus, we lighted the candle and made offerings to buddha.

TADEH! Our last art pieces but i believe it's the best art pieces that we did. It has been a fulfilling journey and through these sessions, i learnt more about myself, forgive and let go of some issues in my heart.

And most importantly, i finally finished writing the art therapy article :)

Detestable!

Today, some actions by some people are really detestable.

1. Person A: He only contacts me when he needs a favour from me. And he hasn't contact me for 1yr, because he did something wrong and owed me something. And after one year, he come back and SMS me. Why? Because he needs my help again. Fuck u. 

2. Person B: I knew this guy from a singles party a few years back. But I wasn't interested in him and soon after he got a gf. Then somehow he broke up with his gf and when I changed my display picture in MSN last week, he MSN me immediately. And today he MSN me again asking things like "where are u?" please! Who are u? Why should I tell u where am I. Then he ask "do u remember when we last met?" Fuck you, I'm not interested. 

3. Person 3: I wasn't close to this girl even though we are in the same school. And she has been very helpful with me lately, offering this and that. She has offered me insurance and I have told her not now because I'm still on contract. But she doesn't undertand and keep pushing me to meet her for meals. Today she even called me waste 30mins talking to me and forcing me to meet her for dinner. Fuck u, don't u understand what's a no?

4. Person D: some people are just good at claiming credits. She just likes to tell others that she is higher rank and I'm a small fry. By saying all these, do u think it contributes to anything? Ya it sure make u super Li hai, but I don't think I'm lousy than u in any way. Fuck u. 

5. Person E: some people just suck, seriously. She can tweet about how she hates this, how she hates that and one small wrong actions by make her jump to the roof and disgrace u like u are nothing. It didn't happen on me, but everyday when I read her tweets, I just get angry. U always think people bully u, u think the rest of the world sucks and say those sacarstic words to make urself better. Fuck u. Thank goodness we are only acquaintances. 

6. Person F: hello excuse me, u forgotten what I taught u, don't kao pei to me and say i never teach. U don't know how to use ur brains and think, don't say I nv teach u. You make those silly careless mistakes, don't accuse me of teaching u wrongly. F. U.