珍惜

我就是喜欢和某人斗嘴，
虽然每次好像都说不过他，
不过吵吵闹闹的日子比较容易度过，
也让心情／课业沉重的一天变得轻松多了。。。

其实谁先喜欢谁一点都不重要。
重要的是，我的人生现在有你。
虽然彼此很忙，
不过脑子里有一直想念的人，
也是一种幸福吧。

《活在当下》

Our FYP abstract got selected for a conference

Dear Dr. Trisha Tsui-Chuan Lin and group,

We are pleased to inform you that your abstract

Communicating Reiki communication in Singapore: An innovation-decision process

has been accepted for poster presentation at the annual IAMCR conference Human Rights and Communication in Mexico City on July 21-24, 2009. The Conference will
be held at the Centro Cultural Universitario Tlatelolco-UNAM.

The Working Group Health Communication and Change has only recently been established;
this year in Mexico will be our first year. We received more submissions than we could host and had to reject several Abstracts. All abstracts were reviewed by both working group chairs.

Please confirm your participation in the conference, no later than April
10th by replying to this email. If you do not indicate your acceptance by
the deadline of April 10th, your space will be re-assigned to another abstract and poster. The date of your poster presentation will be sent to you upon confirmation of all of our presenters.

All presenters need to register for the conference and can be done online at
http://www.iamcr2009mexico.unam.mx/english/welcome.html
. This is the same
link to request travel grants and invitation letters to attend the
conference. Please be aware, the Working Group does not provide any
financial support for the conference.

If you need an invitation letter for your visa to Mexico please contact the
conference organizers as soon as possible. Conference organizers can be
contacted through the IAMCR conference website.

Thank you for your submission to the conference.
We look forward to seeing you in Mexico!

___________________________________________________________________________________

I don't know to be happy for it anot. Now, we have to write a superbly well FYP Research paper for the conference by 10th April and apply for subsidy from school to attend the conference in Mexico.

Great, more unneccessary work. -_-

One day, I may go crazy?

Depression is not an excuse to everything.

CONFIRMED!

$1.3K disappeared! POOF!

Food Blogger Outing at Dallas

After 3 days of home sweet home, I am finally out today to see the sun and breathe in fresh air! Not that I haven't been doing that lah, but today is one of those days without FYP! (Though I still have a shitty research report to work on. damnit)

BOOHOO! Taken while my students are busy working on their maths questions. Will the boss kill me for slacking when she sees this? HAHA!

Brad finally organize another food outing after so long. How can i not support him right? The food blogger scene is getting more hyped up! Drag Lishan along (Thanks girl, for the company!) and more than 40 attended. I think he should just skip uni and do this full time man. Ha!

Once again, everytime i go for brad's outing or when i go out makan with him, im always so bloody tempted to get a DSLR! grrr...

Anyway, this is one of the dishes that we tasted. Pork ribs! there were 3 different kind of pork ribs and our table had a hard time trying to figure out which one is fiery, alabama and smoked hickery BBQ.

It's just one of the many dishes we tasted lah. Not satisfactory today, i felt. For most of them are finger food and all were rather dried and salty and they use the same flour for all the deep fried, so they look the same and taste almost the same?

And we had lotsa mexican bread (or isit naan, aiya wadever it is)...so much flour. which makes mi damn filling after the 3 dish.... burp...

hehe! caught lishan in action! opz, she looks abit fierce here...no la, she is just concentrating on eating...

revenge loh -_-" i take her so she take mi back. i quite like this shot. i think it looks cool! haha! thanks girl!

level 3 of dallas....

and we cam whore!

it's seriously wrong to wear the opera shirt and trying to look emotional. cuz i seriously dont look emo lah.

Then went k box and sing till 7pm before we went home! Will upload the rest to fb soon k. blogger has problems uploading my photos :(

Booked ticket to NEW ZEALAND! Will be away for the month of May! But I will be back before 30 May....WAHAHA..if u noe what day is that....

Im getting old

每个人在不同领域里都会有自己的强项。有些文法一流、有些很会打篮球、有些善于沟通、有些可以应付难搞的家长、有些很会打扮等等。我呢，好像没有什么真正拿手的，在多方面都可以插上一脚。

尤其是到了感情这种事，我更是一个失败者。

奇怪的是，朋友会经常来和我谈心，分享他们的爱情史。而我，也演变成一个爱情顾问，除了在旁聆听他们的喜与悲，还会理智地提供意见。每次回想起来，总让我觉得很搞笑。

在爱情路上，我不曾是一个成功者，哪有资格给别人意见呢？到头来，害人害己怎么办？

长大了，忽然间明白爱情并不是童话。它终究要落入寻常生活，那才是最大的考验。我已经不相信世上会存在着很爱你的人。而你爱的那个人爱不爱你，你心中有数。可是人难免都自欺，一头栽进爱情的时候，忽然就变成弱视，不肯承认他其实没那么爱你。

这几天，走起路来有点轻、有点累。

美玲说，人在生病时变得最脆弱。而这个时刻，可能会想起或特别需要某人在身旁。这三天的病假，可以算是自己挨过的。病慢慢痊愈，心却慢慢空了...

希望刚生病的好友不会感到寂寞。i'm here :)
(although I know Im not the one you wished for. LOL!)

Eve Mag!

Went back to my internship company for some matters. Bought some yummy food back to see the colleagues too and they have launched a new magazine!

Say BYE BYE to Se Xiang Wei. January was actually the last issue.
And the revamp is done!

Eve Magazine. No more 88 pages. This time it's 128 pages with more entertainment and beauty stuff! Of course, they will still keep ~48 pages to food so as to cater to the Se Xiang Wei subscribers! Selling at $5, available at all bookstand now!

Compare, compare...

THE FINAL MOMENT

Sleeping at 5am and waking up at 8am has been a norm for the past few weeks. And finally, the first big one is done. This is what happens a few hours before submission. All of us are getting excited n anxious!

In the end, I printed my report in LWN library - Approx 250 PAGES

Not just one, but three! Two for moderators and one for FYP supervisor. Total damage: $55.

Shujing bought the envelopes and she did the labels.

Shu Wan came up with the DVD cover but the back part of the CD had nothing. So i churn out these crap within 15 minutes. -_-

Together with the report and DVD...

We put it into the envelope and Shu Jing seals it... With all our 1 year long love and effort...

Stacking them up nicely and we make our way to hand in our FYP.
The walk to the office was rather heavy for me.

And finally we handed in, as i signed on the paper. Suddenly I felt light.

Not very light though, as we went back to edit our trailer. And there is still a research paper that we promised, and oral defense in April to stand up for what we did. Of course not forgetting all the shitty assignments.

Hopefully this will be last time I am in editing suite.

Look, the whiteboard in editing suite is filled with so much FUN.

And the beautiful sunset taken a day before the deadline, while all of us were busy doing the last touch up.

And ME who will be on MC for the next 3 days...

Have a good rest everyone!

YAY! SICK! -_-

my throat ran away. my nose ran away. my head ran away.
我.生.病.了

And it actually happens two days before FYP deadline. Fuck.

I will pull through.

撑住啊！

I LOVE YOU FUNGIE! =D

Had a Drama seminar on Friday. Five of us were supposed to work on a production house: W!ldrice, its artistic director Ivan Heng and one of the mosr popular play: Emily of Emerald Hill.

We felt that other seminar groups were too boring as they just yak and yak and yak from the ppt slides, so we decided to do something FUN by acting out a scene from the play each!

Basically this play (Emily of Emerald Hill) is a monologue done since 1983 about this Pernakan lady and her life. Written by popular writer Stella Kon, this play was performed over 130 times all over the world and artistic director Ivan Heng from W!ldrice acted it in 1991. It was rather unique because he is a man acting as a woman on stage for two hours. But it's damn hilarious and dramatic lah.

To my surprise, Jalyn Jie acted the chinese version of Emily before too!

So anyway, kind TingTing lent me her CURLY WIG, so I travelled down to Woodlands to collect it from her, buy all the Nonya kueh kuehs n stuffs before heading back school to prepare. Everyone in the group is supposed to wear Kebaya!

Do we look like LITTLE NONYA? haha

MY WIG! SACRIFICE! I wore it to act a scene. NO FACE LIAO! -_-

YAY! It's over!

Well, next up there will be another final drama performance lah! I think I will be playing Kuo Bao Kun's LAO JIU again! LOL! Whooo... so fun to scold all the hokkien vulgarities on stage!

Lishan and I will be going to watch 天冷就回来 in April. This semester I have watched alot of plays. Well, more expensive than movies, but Im sure it's more meaningful than movies!

By the time all drama lessons ended, it's already close to 7pm and Im damn tired. Rushed back school for editing. It's Shuwan's birthday on Friday! So we celebrated for her in AVID! LOL. Sadness, birthday girl camping in Editing Suite for FYP during birthday. But well, we gave her a lovely surprise!

ALL SHAGGED! But HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

The end is near. I know. But it's getting steeper to reach the finishing line as the days go by. The unedited FYP report Draft 1, the oral defense, the dumping of video, the drama performances, the assignments, the theatre report, and when I thought it's overpowering enough, here comes another to-be-completed research paper which was promised.

Humans are always not satisfied. Wanting to do better in reports, wanting to look prettier, wanting to be a better teacher, wanting to edit better for fyp, wanting to be cared for, wanting to be loved etc etc.

But at this moment, I felt blessed.
With Chris's sudden encouraging sms yesterday that gave me an energy booster to stay awake for more than 36 hours.
With Lishan listening to my crap in her MRT ride back home.
And a lovely surprise that I received when I went tuition centre this morning.

LOVE LETTER AND WANG WANG BISCUITS FROM FUNGIE!

This silly girl, came down to tuition centre on Friday to ask Chris to pass it to me. She even drew two cute little girl in the love love letter! :D During secondary school, Fungie and I write letters to each other almost everyday, even though we meet everyday. So memorable!

Nowadays, nobody write letters anymore.

小时候，写情书是一种情趣。会特地买漂亮的信纸、一笔一划地写下心情、牢牢地记载每天发生的芝麻绿豆小事、特地学怎么折纸鹤等。。。每天都会期待有一封信在我的桌子上。感觉很傻，不过确实窝心。

现在，已经没有人写信了。不是email，就是sms / msn。科技的发达让我觉得人与人之间变得很疏忽了。

很感动。谢谢你，朋友！

10 years of Friendship.
No kidding.

This is LIFE

Editing from tonight 10PM onwards till Friday morning.
Drama Performance at 11AM on Friday.
Followed by lessons till 6PM.
Continue to edit till Saturday morning.
Rush back AMK for tuition 10AM on Saturday morning.
Marketing Meeting after tution.

- which means I will be awake from Thursday 10AM till Saturday 3PM.

Back hall to finish report.
Sunday finalise report and final edit and dump out.

- which means I will be in hall all the way till next wednesday.

- If you care, word of encouragement is definitely welcomed.
But if you decided to say something otherwise, this is not the time.

An interesting dialogue to start my day

This morning, I went Canteen A to buy breakfast. A young Malaysian Cai Fan hawker and I had this weird conversation.

He:
来，要吃还是打包？

I:
打包。

He:
不可以打包。

I:
HUH?

He:
要什么？

I:
(Looking at the Fried Bee Hoon)
炒米粉。

He:
没有炒米粉。

I:
那个不是炒米粉lor?

He:
那个是炒面线。

I:
-_-“ (Hello, Im late liao. No nonsense pls)

He:
来，要加什么？

I:
给我白菜。

He:
白菜不卖!

I:
-_-“ 有没有豆干？

He:
要命哦！豆干还没好。

I:
那不要了。够了。

He:
就这样？

I:
嗯。(walking to cashier)

He:
你是马来西亚人啊？

I:
不是，我新加坡人。

He:
你有马来西亚腔。
(GOD, IM SPEAKING PUUURFECT MANDARIN!)

I:
怎么可能！我是新加坡人啦！

He:
没有看过你。

I:
这么多人，怎么认得。多少钱？

He:
$2.40

I:
哦 (Gave him $2, looking for 40 cents)

He:
不过我算你$1.20。

I:
哦。(I think it’s only $1.20 loh, how can bee hoon and vegetable costs $2.40!)

He:
小姐，可以给我你的电话吗？

I:
不要，谢谢。

**If you give me 豆干, I may consider. LOL**

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On a happier note, I am finally seeing light in my FYP. Review today was not that bad. thank goodness. at least all the D-Letter words don't appear any more. but aiya obviously la, we are only left with a few days before everything is due. More or else, your destiny is fixed liao, nothing much to change.

So far, I think we have spent:
$200 - to hire a Voiceover recordist
$200 - for damage of the equipment
$200 - for a music composer (and up till now he has yet to give us music! rah!)
$200+- for all the taxis that we took during fyp

oh gawd...we are thinking if we should spend more money to hire people to help us with colour correction!

one is going blind looking at the different colour tone of the shots, the other one is going deaf listening to the audio. LOL

I cant wait for 24 March to arrive. Submit FYP and start working on my assignmentsss
And I will sleep 7 days.

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I spent another huge sum of money on cab yesterday. Overslept and have to bring the camera, tripod and monitor back school, so took a cab at 9am when it's still peak hr. BILL: $23.40

Then edit for a while, before rushing off to little india to watch a 2 hour play. BILL: $15.80

Then after the play, rush back school for marketing meeting. board the cab at 445pm, and there was a huge bloody long jam in PIE. I didn't noe that there will still be peak hr surcharge even if i board the cab before 5pm. BILL: $32.20~!!!

wahseh fainted. i reached school at 6PM can! how great. by the time i reach school, my head is already spinning and i feel like vomitting liao. zzzzzz

so total i spent ytd: $71.40!!!

this is suppose to be my pocket money for the few days which im going be in hall.

and it's gone! PHEW!~~~~

i have to eat bread and tou hua for the rest of the days liao. -_-

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Went Geylang to eat 126 dim sum with Pebbles last sunday! SO NICE! Thanku shijie for helping me with the directions and sharing with mi what is nice! the crab bee hoon issss YUMMY!! love love! something different from my house's popular crab bee hoon.

well, while we are searching high and low for 126, pebbles and i walked into one of the RED LIGHT DISTRICT and it's like the whole street is damn crowded with all cheekos, lao ah beis and desperate man from different races. i think it was lorong 24 izit? anyway, it was a WOW experience. there are so many men on that street and there were onli a few prostitutes hanging around. some wore bikini, while other were in their sexy mini skirts.

It was scary as we walked along that street. when we were halfway thru, i said to pebbles: "i think we are at the wrong street."

we laughed and walked very fast. Although we aren't working as that, but the limited number of women along that street and the fact tt we are women etc etc, many many pairs of eyes were just staring at us. no way for turnback cuz we were halfway thru. so we have to continue walking and i look down, don't even dare to look up.

we heaved a sigh of relief when we exit that street. wow must be familiar with the geylang streets man, if not we can easily go to the wrong place. geylang has really nice and yummy food!

and we went to eat durians after that! LIU LIAN WO AI NI! :D

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i think there is no such term as 'friends' to me anymore.
if i have known u way before i made this entry,
yes u are my friend.

but sometimes people delve into ur lives for other purpose.
some may want to get close to u for their own benefits.
some wants to noe more about u so that they noe hw to attack u next time
or others may just want u to follow their religion

well sensitive issue here. i shall not comment much till friday is over.
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im pretty scared to log on to facebook now. cuz when my uncle is online, he would talk to me and spend 1 hr preaching. life is stressed enough, i dont need him to stress mi more and tells my dad what i have been doing. -_-

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I need to wake up real early tomorrow. 830am class tomorrow and i have been late for the past few weeks that my professor has already warned me. and because of this, she has set this rule that whoever is late for tml lesson will get marked down.

n when she says that, she looks at me and say: got it zhane?

hai. when im tired i sleep like pig and i cant hear any alarms. gawd.

i really hope tt i can wake up on time for lessons.
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On a heavier note, an idiot says that my hair is like SAI.

one and only idiot says this. rahhhhhhhhhh!

When life has too many things for you to handle...

Sometimes a lil' FUN won't kill!
Alicia asked me to help her sing for her FYP project, so this is what we did during the recording session on Friday: -

The microphone and playback system is not working, so while the girls are trying to fix the problem, Alvina and I was trying to entertain ourselves too. The late nights is making me very shag. Look at my puffy eyes and dark eye circles. Gawd, I need sleep.

Alicia gave up, so here comes the MASTER...wahahaha!~

Yay! We started singing! But we never forget to cam-whore.

The whole recording session took close to 3 hours! Why? Cuz we sing once, we took many photos. We sing again, we took MORE photos. And we even have this bollywood ONE_TWO_THREE_FOUR! Ok, no need to guess, I came up with these stupid ideas. LOL

Alright, sometimes we are normal too...

But most of the time, Im crazy. Just like above.

We are all trying to pose like some superhero.

CLASSIC!
Im sure Alicia has been dreaming about this day and night. Finally her dream is realised and Im sure she is grateful to me. LOL!

Hey, we are ON AIR! :)

And lastly, while Im trying to make a wish that I can struck TOTO and go to Paris, the girls are disturbing my prayers. RAH!

Okay, we took like close to 90 photos using Mari's MAC book. The ones I uploaded are the more normal looking ones. Im sure u guys don't want to see the more unglam ones right. HA!

Continue to edit till very late and took a cab home. Slept awhile and it's time for tuition. Then have lunch with Fungie in Bugis HK Cafe before we go for our hair appointment. And I realised I left my camera in tuition centre. ZZZZ

This is yummy and pretty. Tomato and mushroom with mayonaise. Our appetizer!

Wave goodbye to my hair for the last time. Actually it's out of shape liao la, time to cut.

After lunch, we went to Chapter 2 for a Hair Treatment cum Haircut. They were having promotions for the March. $108 Hair Treatment for two. Pretty cheap and you just add an additional of $10 for the haircut. So I decided to give it a try.

Have been going to Angel's Haircut for too long, nothing new comes out from her anymore. So it's time for a change. Ya la, I said I wana grow long. Let me be rebellious for the last time before I settle down and let my hair grows.

While Fungie is waiting for me to get my haircut done, she took this:

SO many legs and so many of my PRECIOUS hair! :(

Of course, we had alot of discussion on how we want my hair to be done. Things like, do u still want to concave? do u want to keep the two long sides? do u want easy maintainance hair or something tt u need to style everyday? do u want to cut short or keep long? do u want to look feminine and sporty? etc etc.

and my answer to her last question: Up to you, go by ur feel and make me look pretty. So it begins... with a lil doubt, but convincing myself to have complete trust. (hair is important for me, especially when i have so little hair tt takes a long time to grow. LOL. Ok la, Im just finding a reason for my vanity)

You won't understand how I felt. Nana (the hairstylist) cuts fast. My hair becomes like char kway teow overnight and she just waves her scissors around my hair. I nearly fainted after her first cut and hope she realises that she is cutting a female's head. it's anxious cum pressure cum excitement.

Don't ask me how I felt after the new haircut was done. I held onto Fungie's hand and the only word I said was OMG. Perhaps it was really a recreation that i couldnt accept it at that moment.

And perhaps I was wearing a dress, and with this punkish stylo looks, which makes mi nearly fainted when I look at myself.

So it took me really awhile to settle and calm down and have a close look at myself. I went into Dorothy Perkins, grab a top and bottom, took Fungie's camera and try to style in the fitting room. and i took real long. LOL.

After looking at these photos, i felt much better. Fungie said it's nice. So do all my aunties. Well, actually the most important thing is myself.

I think I look like Kelly Poon.

Ok i think this hair is cool. :)

Then shop around in Bugis before i went home to koon while the best friend go suntec for her burberry sale. i weekly is having some promo cum carnival cum event in bugis so we went to take a peep. and just now they were looking for participants to go up on stage to play game. and guess wad?

My best friend SABO me. -_-"

So when FM93.3 DJ Lin PeiFen turned her head to our direction, my dear friend just points her finger and in a split seconds, i was on stage, totally clueless to what is going on as we just reached. the new hair shock wasnt really over yet and now im on stage facing the whole world.

There were Guo Liang, Lee Teng, Peifen and Ding Zhi Yong on stage.

AND GUESS WHAT'S MORE TO COME! i was up on stage, Ding Zhi Yong ask for my name. After saying it, I look in front and I SAW MY STUDENT standing on the first row, waving frantically at me, holding his camera and keep shooting me and calling me "TEACHER MAUREEN!!!"

Wah i tell u, at that moment i just want to find a hole and dig myself in.

CHRIS: THE STUDENT IS CHIA RONG LIE! -_-

So i act blur, take it that i never see him and played the game. it's a act and guess the tv prog game. so peifen holds a card of a recent channel 8 tv prog, we form a line and somebody has to act it. it will be passed on till the last person guessed it.

ACTING! -_-" DRAMA QUEEN CHOOT POWER!

Everything happened too fast. i just hope to end soon, leave the stage and run away. LOL

But well, it was real fun la. friday and saturday was like a stream of continuous excitement and fun. Audio suite cam whore - hair cut - on stage and saw my student.

I need to take a break and quiet down...

COUNTING DOWN TO THE END OF FYP:
9 DAYS

Odd Habits...

每个人也许都有些怪癖，我也不例外。

我很乱，有乱七八糟的书桌和抽屉。

我害怕站在地铁的月台，总担心自己会不自觉地掉下去。

我爱浪费一个悠闲的下午在cafe里看书。

我爱向左边侧睡。

我想事情的时候会变得很安静。

我生气的时候也不说话。

我会把愤怒藏在心中，变成对自己的失望和感伤。

我喜欢在床上放一只大狗熊，这样才不会觉得寂寞。

我喜欢穿拖鞋。

我可以每天听同一首歌，一直听几年。

我也可以每天吃一样的东西，一直吃好几年。

我喜欢摸我爱的人的耳朵。

我喜欢把手心贴到我爱的人的手心上，比比看他的手比我的手大多少。这件事情，好像永远不会厌。

我喜欢趴在我爱的人身上睡觉。

Just bored...

What would your own album look like if you were in a band? Follow the directions below and find out...

Here are the rules:

1 - Go to Wikipedia. Hit “random”
or click http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Special:Random
The first random Wikipedia article you get is the name of your band.

2 - Go to Quotations Page and select "random quotations"
or click http://www.quotationspage.com/random.php3
The last four or five words of the very last quote on the page is the title of your first album.

3 - Go to Flickr and click on “explore the last seven days”
or click http://www.flickr.com/explore/interesting/7days
Third picture, no matter what it is, will be your album cover.

4 - Use Photoshop or similar to put it all together.

5 - Post it to FB with this text in the "caption" or "comment" and TAG the friends you want to join in.

TWO AM!

I think I can wait till 7am to go for lesson liao.
Well, at least Im satisfied with my Drama assignment :)

Two more weeks to the end. I must be strong.

Heart

用心去感觉，才能做得最美...