Dreams

Had Media Ethics tutorial today and the professor posted up some of the interesting jobs that some of us wanted to do.

Someone wants to be a photographer.

Someone wants to be a filmmaker.

Someone wants to be a cheesecake maker. (This is totally hilarious!)

Someone even wants to be the PRIME MINISTER of Singapore! WOW

But there were some obstacles that may prevent these dreams from happening:

"Getting a second lower degree."

"Creativity Constraints in Singapore"

"No being able to venture overseas due to family commitment"

"Being a FEMALE!"

Hmmm, then what do i want to do leh?

人因梦想而伟大，因行动而精彩。

可是没有梦想的人呢？

Random

每个人都在寻找着，寻找着不同的东西，
不管任何一种生活方式都是一种寻找，
寻找生命的结果，寻找着生存的理由，
人就是在寻找中而活着，并一直的活下去
一直寻找着彼岸，不停的轮回，不停的寻找.......

It was a long weekend. A tiring one.

A weekend for me to rush reports, reports and reports.

Although I have completed half of them, the feeling of uncertainty is still there. Sometimes, some things are better to be done alone. It’s like, either you do it, or we discuss and end up nowhere.

Stiff neck is causing headache.

A stressed up girl is a grumpy girl.

Granddaddy and Aunty visited Grandaunty in the hospital today. I don’t like hospitals. 那是一个充满着悲伤、很可怕的地方。The ambulance, the wards, the corridor still reminds me of granny’s death. So I chose not to go with them.

I think the saddest thing is life is not about getting stressed up with piles for to-be-completed reports. It’s when you know that you are nearing the end of the journey and are just waiting for the day to come. All alone.

Although I am not close to grandaunty, and can’t even remember her face, but I pray that she leaves this place without pain. Granddaddy came home and keep telling us that it’s useless to have so many kids when none of them bothers to visit their dying mother during weekend or holidays.

How strange, everyone is so busy with their own lives that relatives don’t meet each other often, except during:
1. Chinese new year
2. Wedding dinner
3. Funeral

This is especially so when all of us have grown up and have our own lives. I still remember clearly how a bunch of cousins would also plead our mummys to organize a dinner gathering so that we can meet each other. There was a time when I fell so ill but I insisted on going.
Well, that applies to friends too. Meetups are rare, and it’s usually during birthdays.

有点可怜.

I guess I am still not used to adulthood.

“每个人心中都有一片池塘。我们小时候用来投微笑的池塘。那里有着我们最初的梦想，有我们最初的回忆。后来，荒芜了，那是每一则神话最完美的交代。。。”

Dr Masaru Emoto is a Japanese author known for his controversial claim that if human speech or thoughts are directed at water droplets before they are frozen, images of the resulting water crystals will be beautiful or ugly depending upon whether the words or thoughts were positive or negative.

Heavy Metal (see, it's not pretty)

Thank You

Love and Appreciation

I want to get this book: Message from Water :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIEYING & LISHAN!

Celebrated Jie Ying's and Lishan's birthday today. We went K Box in the afternoon and sang our hearts out, cuz we havent get together for k box for a long long long time... Lishan sang many many nice songs! please send me those songs soon! haha

Then i went to collect a brownie cake which i ordered from Mrs Field. It was wonderfully decorated. Hope the girls like it. :)

After that, we went to Crystal Jade Korean Restaurant at Centrepoint. it's one of our favouritre korean restaurants too! (but price is rather steep)

Thanks girls for the dinner treat! :) *hugs*

And we went to catch Butterfly Lovers after dinner. it was a super diao show with a super stupid ending. nevertheless, wu zun is still so dashing! haha

Well, this concludes my lovely saturday. all of us had fun. now it's time to sit down and complete all my reports and assignments and start mugging. :(

Ah Gong's Birthday

Celebrated Ah Gong's birthday on Tuesday. We went to a new zichar stall in AMK called Bayshore Delight. It was opened by one of the old Mediacorp actor 唐琥 and was well featured in one of the tabloids, so we decided to give it a try.

I told Aunty that we shouldn't keep eating the same things. The same things = frog legs, chilli crab, hotplate toufu.

my lesson ended late and when i went there, what was on the table was: kopi pork ribs, butter crab, and i ordered a extra yam thingy.

ops, will shijie drool at this plate of butter crab? haa, dun worried, block 232 one is still better, much better. the food that night was unsatifactory, everything was salty, salty and salty. the yam thingy was slightly burnt, the butter crab was as more like garlic crab, the kopi pork ribs didnt really have the kopi meaty taste, aiya, bad la.

anyway, all of us are present, except my papa? haha, which is not very important.

my 3rd aunty

me!

the birthday man! ah gong!

my 2nd aunty

my mummy

my uncle (aka xiao hei's papa - OMG xiao hei is arriving on 15 nov! and the whole family will be staying till end of the year, which includes xmas! oh mine, my exam is that period! and uncle says: "oh u just go over 2nd aunty house to study lor!")

i bought this for grandaddy!

and wadever u see below are impulsive buying!

lishan warned mi this shoe is not good, but well, i kept thinking about it and when i went back a few days later to get her present, i decided to just buy it! haha.

and i saw fungie getting a super sweet 2009 calender, so i went to look high and low, and i found this! ta-deh! loves! too bad this time round, their mickey mouse collection is not nice, i m still v much in love with my 2008 calender, the one that looks like bible and cost quite alot. this one aint any better, 28 bucks! haha, i just love the gold la.

and baa just showed mi this super funny news! RJ, Pebbles, read! Gao xiao laaaaa

Woman jailed after 'killing' virtual husband

TOKYO - A 43-year-old player in a virtual game world became so angry about her sudden divorce from her online husband that she logged on with his password and killed his digital persona, police said.

The woman, who has been jailed on suspicion of illegally accessing a computer and manipulating electronic data, used his ID and password to log onto the popular interactive game "Maple Story" to carry out the virtual murder in May, a police official in the northern city of Sapporo said Thursday. He spoke on condition of anonymity because of department policy.

"I was suddenly divorced, without a word of warning. That made me so angry," the official quoted her as telling investigators and admitting the allegations.

The woman, a piano teacher, had not plotted any revenge in the real world, the official said.

She has not yet been formally charged. If convicted, she could face up to five years in prison or a fine up to US$5,000.

Players in "Maple Story" create and manipulate digital images called "avatars" that represent themselves, while engaging in relationships, social activities and fighting monsters and other obstacles.

In virtual worlds, players often abandon their inhibitions, engaging in activity online that they would never do in the real world. For instance, sex with strangers is a common activity.

The woman used login information she got from the 33-year-old office worker when their characters were happily married to kill the character. The man complained to police when he discovered that his online avatar was dead.

The woman was arrested Wednesday and taken 620 miles (1,000 kilometers) from her home in southern Miyazaki to be detained in Sapporo, where the man lives, the official said.

The police official said he did not know if she was married in the real world.

Bad online behavior is usually handled within the rules set up by online worlds, which can ban miscreants or take away their virtual possessions.

In recent years, misbehavior in the virtual world has in some cases had consequences in reality.

In August, a woman was charged in the U.S. state of Delaware with plotting the real-life abduction of a boyfriend she met through the virtual reality Web site "Second Life."

In Tokyo, a 16-year-old boy was charged with stealing the ID and password from a fellow player of an online game in order to swindle virtual currency worth US$360,000.

雨

“至于下雨，那是很久以前的事了，长大以后，已经忘了淋雨的姿势，只记住了雨伞的顏色。”--蔡深江《漫步经心》

很美的一段文字，很美的意境，看完了蔡深江的《漫步经心》，的确处处经心，也惊心。

的确，长大后的我们，抬头看时不再是看到美丽的雨天，而是那雨伞的顏色，有红的，有绿的，有黑的，但是有哪一种顏色，能如那下著雨的天空般，美丽？

也许，有时候的确该静下心，回到那原始的童真年代，让自己感受一下，那很久没有的赤子之心吗？

也许，找个雨天，让自己找回那已经忘记了的，天空的顏色。

SHOPPING DAY!

O Levels started last week. The main papers will be this week and all the best to all my students.
After giving tuition to Peiyu at 9am and Tianyi at 1130am, i met up with fungie for shopping!

We first cabbed to Ken's store in Hougang (MR PRAWN) to eat prawn mee. I thought it was too sweet (added too much tomato sauce) and i think the main reason why business is not good is because they sell small prawns and emphasize on selling peeled small prawns, which means freshness is not there. Though they had big prawns, it's hiding in the fridge swimming cuz Ken thinks that not many people knows how to appreciate big prawns. but if you dont sell it, how do you know people dont know how to appreciate?

fungie thinks the soup is too bland. and i think it's out of place to add fish cake into prawn mee.

after that we cabbed down to chinatown to visit some tour agencies. cuz we want to go australia! but packages are so EXPENSIVE, range starting from $2000! oh mine oh mine! our initial destination was melbourne, not only was it expensive, but it was difficult to book!

i dunnoe it was the chilli or wad, but i was having tummy ache and diarrhoea. LS many times and fungie has to walk around herself. haha

then we decided to change destination to japan! 5days japan! it was slightly above $2k. next we tried to ask about perth. it was much cheaper but still, we prefer melbourne. so it guess no holidays for me this december! :(

Fungie said topshop is having sales. so we headed to city hall, got better. the mfss gang gave mi a gift card worth $70 and it's expiring soon. so i decided that i must buy something from topshop.

look here look there, and FINALLY! i saw a dress hiding in a small corner, i pick it up, MY SIZE! i tried. MY STYLE! simply love it!

it costs $129 but i dunnoe which idiot, while trying the dress, didnt unzip and it was slightly torn at the zip. so i requested the salesgirl to sew it for mi and it was very ugly. i requested them to help mi ask other branches, despite it was peak period. unfortunately, all has been sold out. but i really love the dress and THANKFULLY, the manager was there and he gave mi a 10% discount. so i paid $110+ for it. LOVES!

i think the salesgirl thinks im fussy, but i dun care. so exp leh! haha

Then we head to chijmes! it was so quiet during sunday! totally love the romantic feel. we decided to settle on Sun with Moon. they have this hokkaido special. yummy food, good ambience.

我在想什么呢？

then we walked over to aldo and fungie bought this nice hair clip. pretty right! long hair so good! how envious!

this is outdated but i bought this bag from funcdeko. thanks shijie for your discount card! lishan bought a bag too and i got the membership card too! cuz we spent above $100. haha. i love the vintage style it carries! :D (taken using my camera phone)

BEWARE! SCARY PICTURE BELOW!

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TADEH! AUNTY AND I DID MASKS! HAHA

很累。这一切到底几时才能结束？

唯我独尊

《寂寞的十七岁》

你是否还能清楚记得，17岁的你在做什么？

十七岁，在每个人的心中，都是青春的象征，和朋友的快乐生活、对一切事物的热情、对未來的憧憬，都是充滿着想像和希望。

17岁的我，结束了四年精彩的中学生涯，告別童年的最後時光，步入新的学习旅程碑。


新的环境、新的朋友、新的学习经验。

每天去学校上学，跟同学打打闹闹，满心期待趕赶快下课跟同学一起回家，假日/周末的时候和朋友一起看电影、或者是一起去唱卡拉OK，好好享受快乐的时光。

我想，我的17岁应该比书里的男主角幸福。

白先勇的《寂寞的十七岁》描写一位男同学，他非常非常的不喜欢读书，喜歡自由自在的生活，但是爸爸、妈妈却一直逼他要读书，常常被拿來跟兄弟比较，大哥在陸军官校考第一，保送美国；二哥在哥伦比亚读硕士。两个哥哥读书从来没考过第5名以外，就连最小的弟弟每年也都考第一。

以上的种种压力让他快喘不过气來，所以开始自甘堕落，喜欢说谎，在外面跟同学抽烟、翘课等。不想回到那个不温暖的家，因为家里面没有一个人会关心他，只会对他施加压力。更不想回到学校上课，同学会嘲笑他、排斥他，甚至还有人帮他取绰号，只因为他遗传到妈妈的白皮肤，所以长的很像女生。

在家闷得发慌，自己寄空信封给自己，假装是密友的来函；又打空电话，自己跟自瞎闹。他消磨了日月，脾气却越来越孤怪。他难得交上了魏伯颺这个关心他的朋友，却因同学嘲笑他们搞同性恋而疏远了。

「活着」反而失去了所有的实用性，他的17岁变得很寂寞。

其实岁月真的不流人，一年一年地过去了，一晃就已经22岁了。

想庆祝17生日，想得美咯！

A 40 year old aunty got 200 pieces of masks from me, so happy. Now i'm left with limited numbers of masks. She bought 150 collagen masks, which i do not have enough stock, so in the end, i bought another 100 pieces of masks just for her. And i spent 1 hour on the phone with her, and another 45 mins talking to her yesterday when we met in ang mo kio. she is a nice lady lah, very friendly and fun. hope she likes the masks :)

the current supplier is charging very high and frankly, i dont intend to continue selling anymore. cuz the profits arent high and it's really hard work.

but my aunty and uncle is damn passionate about it, i mean they have been helping with me alot of things. my aunty check all the transactions, stock check and wrap up the masks nicely and sent it to post office. my uncle surfs the net to check out for some cheaper deals and help me to do all the calculations.

their passion really touched me and haha sorry i have been so busy, so the only thing i did was to check and reply email. and pass it to my aunty to do the receipt and all.

since i managed to clear 1000 masks within 2 weeks, why not more right? still in the midst of liasing and hopefully by next week, i can get cheaper supplier and have the stocks ready.

creative juices has stopped flowing into my brain. with every week passed, it just seems to get more tiring and frustrated. well, this may not be the right place to write these down, but i dont care any longer. with every meeting being totally futile, with every ideas being discarded, with such strong conventional ideas instilled, it just seems like wild ideas arent allowed.

a person like me who loves fun, who loves a special way of doing something, now becomes someone who is very orderly and proper, who follows the rules but the requirement is to CHALLENGE OURSELVES and not doing the same thing. read the criteria carefully and think.

it's bothersome and kinda useless to fight for your beliefs anymore.

and it's really dreadful when someone is not even prepared for the role that they are in, especially it's a big role. although suggestions and ideas must be discussed, but it's wrong when one is seeking for opinion of something ON THE ACTUAL DAY which is supposed to be done by him/her or at least discussed earlier if there is any queries.

every meeting is a waste of time. totally.

never mind, continue to do things in your conventional way. we will just fail the whole module together. i wont comment on anything, i will just do what is being said. :)

alrights, i had an argument with michelle and i have been thinking about it for two days. i hope it won't spoil the mood of celebrating jie ying and lishan birthday and i know what i should do next time to prevent such things from happening.

so to michelle,

I'M SORRY!

我讨厌今天的自己
很讨厌

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDREAS!

I had fun yesterday. After tuition, met Shu Wan and Shu Jing for project meeting and headed to Holistic Living Festival at Fort Canning Park. We initially want to film the event but the organiser expect us to pay $300 as deposit and follow what they require us to shoot, which is very stupid. so in the end, we just ended up taking some photos.

There are about 35 exhibition stalls, ranging from aroma theraphy, crystals, health food, reiki, tarot reading, feng shui, palmistry etc etc.

Shuwan and Shujing trying out the free hand flavour massage. Shuwan's one is chocolate flavour, which i think it stinks. Shujing's one is peach flavour which smells nicer. haha

essential oils...

Palm reading by Pat...

this is turkish bowl, it creates a calming sound.

reiki healing...

Then headed to pasir ris, omg its such a long journey, next time can they build it at amk or something.

but downtown east has renovated and it's so beautiful.

GIRL GUIDES RULES!
These are the juniors who has been with me through thick and thin and giving mi the best years in my life. :)

Xue Ying and May, i think their top look alike. haha

Peiwen, sorry i miss your birthday party that day. hehe

WE ARE FROM MFSS!

WE ARE THE GIRL GUIDES AND BOYS SCOUTS! why am i sitting down? because im their da jie da, the oldest among them all. LOL (thanks ar andreas! haha)

birthday girl...taken after 3rd attempt. alamk, why cant i seem to capture her with eyes open?

parents with her cutting the cake. then i realise that during my 21st birthday, i havent take any photos with my family at all.

That concludes my saturday. I love this gathering, i love the girls. many years and passed yet none of us changed. these girls are still as lovable as before. :)